XANDER: Book 1, The Beginning – ROCKSTAR BOOK #9
We met at the age of eight. That day on the playground was a turning point in my life. She stole my heart with just a glance as she sang off key.
But nothing’s perfect.
I figured out pretty quickly she was too good for me, so I let her go. I thought I was doing the right thing–until I realized I wasn’t. She was my everything and without her I was nothing.
When we reunited, my heart became whole. My life had meaning. We loved fiercely and completely. Life was perfect.
The more success I gain with Falling Down, the further away I’m pulled from Tera. But she gains success of her own, and the distance grows immeasurably.
She wants me to live my dreams and I want the same for her. We both know our love is strong enough to survive time and distance.
Then the unthinkable happens and nothing will ever be the same again.
AN INTERVIEW WITH JESSE KINGSTON…
The way she looks at me makes my heart beat so fast. Just that look fills me with so much warmth and love—love? Yeah, it’s love. I’ve loved her from the minute I met her and I’m going to love her forever. I don’t think forever is going to be enough time to love her in all the ways I want and need to. I don’t just mean fucking. I mean all the ways. Happy, sad, and everywhere in between. She’s it for me.
I wasted so much time. We missed out on sharing our firsts. I want to kick my own ass for that. Life is full of regrets. We can’t change the past. All we can do is learn from it. And what I’ve learned is I can’t live without her. I can’t, I won’t, and I don’t have to.
She tells me everything I need to know with that smile, the sparkle in her eyes, and the love that radiates from her into me. I didn’t know it was possible to find your soulmate at the age of eight, but I did. Tera’s my forever.
“Tera,” I say softly.
She grins. “Xander.”
The guys all groan and leave the room. They could’ve stayed. I don’t care if they see or hear this. I’m not ashamed of how I feel. It’s time I man up and own it.
“I love you,” I tell her.
Her eyes go wide, then tears fill them. “Xander,” she whispers. “I love you, too.”
I feel so much right now, and I’m not holding anything back. I let that tear fall that’s been threatening for a few minutes now. She’s giving me all of her and I want her to have all of me.
“This isn’t easy for me to do. You’ve been my rock, but I don’t want you to be my crutch. I know you’re a phone call or a flight away. I promise you, if something happens, if I just need to talk to you to get me through a hard time, I will call you immediately, no matter the time. I’ll interrupt you during a show. I promise.” This is what he’s asked of me. It’s the least I can do for the man who owns my heart and soul, the man who’s looked out for me for the last eight weeks without so much as a complaint.
He lets out a sigh of frustration. “I don’t want to do this.”
“I know. But you have to.”
He looks into my eyes and I feel him searching for something—the truth. I let him see it. I let him see that I need him to do this not only for himself and his career, but for me as well. He can’t miss out on something so amazing because he wants to sit here and make sure I’m okay. I can’t allow him to do that. At some point he’d realize what he gave up and he’d resent me, especially if my career takes off. I couldn’t live with that.
“For you, my wife, I’ll do anything,” he says softly.